i have no clue what im saying in thisupdate, i just felt the need to update and say something so here goes. Sorry for those who read this bunch of stupid crapiest words ever.
Church this morning felt weird and i felt like i had no right to be there, until i new that God was still with me and that i knew i had my head sorted out. The songsters sang a song called 'if you call me lord" and i could feel all the congregation's eyes on me, most inparticular would have to be leanne's (our officer) dad.
When i went home last night, and sat down to look at sunday school for today it was all about living right for God and everything, something came jumping out to me, that everything would be ok in it''s own way. Everyone go's off the rails and god's path sometime in life don't they? they get forgiven don't they? and then they get to go to heaven and all that...my biggest worry and upset right noww is that i wont see my daddy ever again.
Please God forgive me, i know what i have done is wrong and i know i will never do it again, i want to follow your plan for my life, i want to live for you, i want to serve you, not myself and not others, YOU, the one and only God, and master of my life.