10/15/09

be a hero.

I'm feeling rather overwhelmed at the minute. Overwhelmed by everything i have to do in the space of the next 10 months, if that. Studies, Assingments for my folder, sermons, meetings, reading (whihc shouldn't be such an issue, but yeah), home leagues, over sixties, interviews, meetings with matthew and debbie, assessment confrences, not to mention Driven, sunday school, Work, and a social life in it all. It just seems like so much in too little time.

It scares me & makes me happy.
Prayers needed though. Thanks guys.

10/8/09


I have just had one of thee most amazing weeks ever. Meet some amazing people, realized i don't have to be scared of some people, haha. This week has taught me so much, i've meet some awesome people who use the salvation armys community programmes around London, i've had so many experiences, it's been so good.

I miss london now though. I miss the Candidate Unit, and everyone in the unit, amazing people.

I was sitting at the welcome weekend waiting for the meetings to start on Saturday night, and on sunday, and everyone i talked to, when i explained what i was doing there, they all said "This will be a good confirmation of your calling then. Have a good week!"....i kept thinking, having had a really good week, that God haven't to my knowledge confirmed officership to me, though i sppok to soon. The band then played "In Christ alone" and "Dear Lord i do surrender", two of which are my songs about officership and speek volumes to me. Amazing stuff.

I alos have discovered through conversations with Linda, that Gods timing and how he works is truely amazing. No other officer, well actually, no one apart from my mum i think knows what i told Lina, Mark & Amanda...and to be told by Linda that she wanted to do certain things but couldn't for various reasons....But, through her officership, she's done them, God has let it all happen. It's gave me much more hope, but also made me think thigns over and decided to place it all in Gods hands.

I had a busy week, going to different corps programmes; from croydons baby song, to selling papers in Beckenham, to Kids clubs, to Prayers at the college, to helping in the hall at penge to the welcome weekend, the college JAM club to parent & toddlers ar penge....it's been amazing. But theres one day that really sticks out to me, that is Monday. On monday, i went to prayers at the college with Amanda, then back to the Candidate unit from half 9 - half 2. During these hours, i reflected. I filled in the reflection forms i got by Linda, and then was given two assessments to fill in, which took a while.

>After Lunch, at half 1, i meet with Mark. We sat and chated about everything, about the passion assessment i just filled in, about why i think i'm ready for next year, what more experience i felt i needed, and about a few other things. We also discused doing some studies before then, so i've got to think about that now.

Mark & Linda, have been amazing, for taking the time out to sit and chat with me, for taking me round London and listening, for praying for me, and for the last few things they said...

Linda said i did really well this week, and said to keep in touch and i could email her when i needed to chat, and Mark told me to email him if i ever need him.

I may not know exactly whats going to happen next year. But whatever it is, God is in full control, and i know that if i do go to college next year, it will be an amazing experience.