i have no clue what im saying in thisupdate, i just felt the need to update and say something so here goes. Sorry for those who read this bunch of stupid crapiest words ever.
Church this morning felt weird and i felt like i had no right to be there, until i new that God was still with me and that i knew i had my head sorted out. The songsters sang a song called 'if you call me lord" and i could feel all the congregation's eyes on me, most inparticular would have to be leanne's (our officer) dad.
When i went home last night, and sat down to look at sunday school for today it was all about living right for God and everything, something came jumping out to me, that everything would be ok in it''s own way. Everyone go's off the rails and god's path sometime in life don't they? they get forgiven don't they? and then they get to go to heaven and all that...my biggest worry and upset right noww is that i wont see my daddy ever again.
Please God forgive me, i know what i have done is wrong and i know i will never do it again, i want to follow your plan for my life, i want to live for you, i want to serve you, not myself and not others, YOU, the one and only God, and master of my life.

3days left of school!

Its quite sad that in 3 days I will have finished my school days for ever, that is until I reach my dream and become a teacher. But yeah, school, this year has probably sucked where marks and results have been concerned, but I would not go back and change this year for the world. I have made some great new friends, and people who I already knew in earlier school years have talked to me a lot more. I have had a blast and loved ever minute of the whole experience of being a prefect has been awesome. However, there have been times where I wondered should I still be here? And oh no, what am I going to do! These times were when my best mate left school back in November – I was doing well that day, it was for the best, she had all her grades that she needed and stuff, but after she handed back her locker key and after giving her a hug, I went to RE and cried, although I tried my bets to hide my tears. For a while when she left I always though “she’s going to walk through the t-bar doors now” but as you probably already know, she never did walk through those doors, and times were I felt alone, but in the end I wasn’t alone and I knew that I had other friends at school to hang around with, and the time in which I would get to spend with my best mate would be special. There were other times when my friends at school would start arguments, which really upset me. I love all my friends to bits. So more importantly there is the education side of school, where I dropped one class at the start of term this year (RE), everything was going fine according to me, I knew I could do it, I think deep down I was kidding myself because two weeks ago I was kicked out on English but it was however a two way decision between me and my teacher, now I only have Biology (which im failing too) and Music which I am actually passing, yeeeeeheeeeee.
I don’t want to leave school. Our head teacher led an assembly about ‘ The Exams’ and handed out the sixth years their certificates for peer support which they have been involved in all year round. I got mine for Home economics and P.S.E (social education). It was sort of an emotional day, and I dread to think what Thursday I going to be like.
I guess through God I can anything – “I can do all things through Christ, because he gives me strength’.
All I can say now, is Rock on Thursday then hurry up to the 16th of may for my 18th Birthday and then the 23rd may when I finally leave school. Let’s hope I get into college, because I am so not sitting around on my backside every day doing nothing!
Thanks for reading guys!

im new, and boring too!

this is just a quick post just to say hi, and that im new here lol! So, yeah hi people :)