College or no college? that is the question....

So, l was told last Friday that i am not allowed back to College. Which in itself isn't very nice, but when accompained by the following:

- You are not teacher material, and will not be an effective teacher
- You should not have passed your Grade 8, the only reason you passed was because i played the piano and covered up for you, and he didn't notice..really you should have failed. The Grade 8 you got was crap.
- You need to take a year out, discover it is you want to do with your live, grow up then come back. I'm not here to help you grow up.
- You have not shown me you are a cornet player
- You have not shown you'r love for the Cornet

That last one is good. For the last 12 years, i've spent nearly every Wednesday night for 2 hours at the Salvation Army hall learning a brass instrument. 12 Years...if i hated it i would have given it up before now, i would so not have applied to College to do a music course.

And, i don't see how someone can say you won't be an effective teacher, when the tutor who made that comment has never seen me teach, never at all.
Someone reminded me about Thomas when all this happened last Friday. Thomas being a 14 year old that i'm helping at Band learners, for like the last year and a bit..and he's came on so well, and that makes me so happy.

If i wasn't so much in love with wanting to become a teach with brass, do you really think i'd get a little bit upset when i hear little kids say they're not going to come back because they use too big words, and he doesn't get it...and i can think of many ways to put it across to that age group..

If my tutor only knew...haha, well, by tomorrow she probably will. Withemails flying around, calls being made on my behalf.

I'm just so annoyed.
The condition to get into the second year of the Diploma was : Pass Grade 8..which i have done. Then my tutor turns around and tells me and a friend who passed, with Distinction actually he's not getting back...i didn't get it.
So, basically what she is saying is Grade 8 didn't matter in the first place. (The ones who failed are getting back =/) and all that matters if tara thinks you can do it.
Well, i think i can do it,friends and family think i can do it...and i'm going to fight.
They outcome may not change, i may have to sit think, Pray and work out what God wants me to do these next two years, but if anything, i want tara to know what she said was wrong, and for someone who doesn't have much confidence...which is what she said also, to say that to me, how she thought that was going to help i don't know.