...

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
♥

Thursday!

Today started off really bad.
I had thee worst hour at work this morning,and i just couldn't face anybody.
The clients i had after Ross, shocked me. The lady that i usally just take around peterhead to help with her shopping, well we actually had a nice talk, and the hours past really quick, the next lad is lovely and it's aways a pleasure just to sit with her.

But i just wanted to be alone today, which is very hard when you are a carer.

I had a meeting with Matthew this afternoon, which i say was very helpful and i think we make good progess on things.

Had an hour free, which was really nice because Nan, Grace, George and Leighton were round for supper. Leighton is just such anamazing wee boy, he could make you smile no matter how you were feeling.So i'm really glad i got a chance to get a hug from him earlier and see him laugh & giggle! =) ♥

Then had the tuesday club (On a thursday, talk about conusing,lol)

And that has been the rundown of my thursday!

Leighton Raymond Geddes, 4 months & 3 weeks.

Smiles & Giggles =)

Leighton playin with Auntie sam's bear KS! :p

New clothes from Auntie Sam!

Leigthon and Auntie Sam ♥

I really love my work. Especially on days when you just can't be bothered, because there is always something that happens, to make you feel so much better, especially working with Neale. Since it's the holidays, i've been with him in the afternoon instead of the evening, and we've talked and walked, and laughed and joked. It's been really nice.

With the holidays we have our teenage club on mondays and kids club on wednesdays. Monday was really good. Wehn wednesday came though, i woke up feeling so horrible;sore head,sore throat, blocked nose, the lot, that day i had to get through getting Ross ready;showered, milk and medicine sorted, bed made, and dishes washed and put away, then i had kids club; i was a bodyguard for one of the kids who liked to run out of the community centre and attacked by the same kid.

I still love my work though.

At the minute i'm trying to write a sermon for Candidate sunday on the 10th May. I've got a few things down, but i just can't seem to find the right words, or what God is telling me. I'll blog it when i'm done though.

Going to watch the passion of the Christ tonight, since it's Holy Week.

Hello 2009!

You know, my first thoughts as the clock struck 12 were, "Oh me, i'm going to London next year" - Now that was scary.

This last weekend though, has brought be back down with a great big thud. I got feedback back from the meeting i led in December, yeah it was good feedback, well, positive critical feedback as my old tutor would say. I needed it though, i needed someone to tell me what they would like me to me doing. Not exactly telling me what to do, but giving me ideas. Like doing a sermon once a month, and to get help with public speaking...I think these are good ideas. But if it was leading the meeting i struggled with, would it not be better if i did a whole meeting every couple of months?...that way, i know what the meetings about, then i can maybe deliever the meeting a bit better. Just a few thoughts really.

We're still waiting for my Gran's test results, i really hope she's okay! She was telling mum that she has this sist, so we're just waiting to hear from her if it's cancerous or not! (Hopefully it's not!)

So this year, is going to be a busy one.
With work hours hopefully increasing soon, Spending time with Leighton, Visiting Gemma and Laura, Getting down to Plymouth, and all my candidate stuff.

Wow, what a week.


I got a gorgeous wee Nephew at half 12, on the 4th of December :)

Me with my nephew, Leighton <3

It was a bit of an emotional day too, with my dad and two of my Grandads no longer here, but you know, when i saw him, my face lit up and i couldn't stop smiling. I still think i smile 24/7.

He's just the best.
He sucked my finger on friday, when he was crying and opened his eyes and looked right at me, it was just an amazing time. I just love him <3


Pictures are on Bebo, have a wee lookie :)

someday, i'll wish upon a star..<3

Sometimes, i wish it was different.
I wish. I just wish.

Last weekend was a really bad one. It was 16 years to my dad, so Grace and i headed to his grave to give it a clean, and put in some roses.

I always thought that it would get easier to life with when i was older, but really, it's a little harder - you want them around to go throught the happy times with you, your graduation (which is on monday) Graces 1st baby, his first grandchild. I want him around. And thats the hard part.

Yes, i've been blessed you have such an amazing Adopted Dad, or so i call him, in my life over these las couple of years..but he's now moved too...they both are watching from a distance...least i can still talk to my adopted dad though.

And, i don't think my adopted parents know just how much they mean to me. So, if you are both reading - I love you both! *Hugs*

the life of sam...

I have no clue where to start....

When we arrived back from Africa, i knew the next thing i had to do was to find a Job.
So, i've been at the Job centre quite a bit, I've became an expert in filling in application froms, I've had 5 Job interviews, 4 on the same week, 2 on the same day....I rejected a 10 hour cleaning job in the hope that one of the three full time ones would get back to me, luckily, the post arrived on saturday morning with a letter from Crossroads caring Scotland offering me the position of Care Attendant. :) Yay!! They do kids clubs every saturday, and during the summer and October holidays - Hopefully i'll get a chance at that :).

But in amongst all that...my uncle Alan phoned one evening last week (I now think they should call more regularrly, because when they randomly call, you know something is up)...and i was right. This time, it was my Grandma. She has smoked all her life, and has never ever had any health problems, and so this was sort of out of the blue, and shocked us all, and worried us. So with phone calls going from Peterhead to Greenock, we find out my Grandma has a Lung disease, a bloodclot leg, has low oxygen in her blood, and might have had a suspicious heart attack...but we're still not sure about that yet. The good news is, she's out of the cronory unit, and is stable, still on Oxygen, and hopefully giving up smoking. Which, to me, was the best news ever. I remember trying to tell her when i was little to stop, now after this, she's going to, and so are some of my cousins. :)

From Job interviews to spending afternoons in the Army hall, trying to do Candidate Assignments - "They key events in the histroy of the Salvation Army", This is actually a really interesting topic, and i've learnt so much, much more than i ever knew before.
I've also been planing Driven for this Sunday...hopefully it goes well.

And, lastly, mum's in Hospital this wednesday, to get an operation on both her feet. Please pray for a healthy and quick recovery. And pray for the family too, especially with my Grandma, and mum in hospital....and Grace, who's like 28 weeks pregnant.

And that is it.

Thats us back from Tanzania.
I miss my little friends, and their smiles, thier love, and just everything so much.
My body still wakes at 7am for 8am prayers, and by half 10pm, i'm shattered...i wish i was in Africa!

Africa was amazing. Don't know when i shall be back there, but i know it probably wont be in the next two years at least.

I miss Peladia and Prisca :( They were my little girlies.

Today we had the North Scotland Music School festival, which entailed saying Goodbye to two people who have been a big source of strength, a big enouragement and just basially amazing DYO and DCO, but more than that, they've beame family...and lets just say it was an emotional afternoon.

Things wont be the same without them, it all seems weird already...i don't like it very much.
(I'm mving with them - they don't know it...but i am, haha)

College or no college? that is the question....

So, l was told last Friday that i am not allowed back to College. Which in itself isn't very nice, but when accompained by the following:

- You are not teacher material, and will not be an effective teacher
- You should not have passed your Grade 8, the only reason you passed was because i played the piano and covered up for you, and he didn't notice..really you should have failed. The Grade 8 you got was crap.
- You need to take a year out, discover it is you want to do with your live, grow up then come back. I'm not here to help you grow up.
- You have not shown me you are a cornet player
- You have not shown you'r love for the Cornet

That last one is good. For the last 12 years, i've spent nearly every Wednesday night for 2 hours at the Salvation Army hall learning a brass instrument. 12 Years...if i hated it i would have given it up before now, i would so not have applied to College to do a music course.

And, i don't see how someone can say you won't be an effective teacher, when the tutor who made that comment has never seen me teach, never at all.
Someone reminded me about Thomas when all this happened last Friday. Thomas being a 14 year old that i'm helping at Band learners, for like the last year and a bit..and he's came on so well, and that makes me so happy.

If i wasn't so much in love with wanting to become a teach with brass, do you really think i'd get a little bit upset when i hear little kids say they're not going to come back because they use too big words, and he doesn't get it...and i can think of many ways to put it across to that age group..

If my tutor only knew...haha, well, by tomorrow she probably will. Withemails flying around, calls being made on my behalf.

I'm just so annoyed.
The condition to get into the second year of the Diploma was : Pass Grade 8..which i have done. Then my tutor turns around and tells me and a friend who passed, with Distinction actually he's not getting back...i didn't get it.
So, basically what she is saying is Grade 8 didn't matter in the first place. (The ones who failed are getting back =/) and all that matters if tara thinks you can do it.
Well, i think i can do it,friends and family think i can do it...and i'm going to fight.
They outcome may not change, i may have to sit think, Pray and work out what God wants me to do these next two years, but if anything, i want tara to know what she said was wrong, and for someone who doesn't have much confidence...which is what she said also, to say that to me, how she thought that was going to help i don't know.

Grade 8

Woot! Sam has passed, with 71%. I so was not expecting that, but i'm really glad i have passed. So, really, i should be allowed back to college next year, since passing the grade 8 was the condition. Yay! :D

It's funny though. The same happened with my results as last year. I hated and really couldn't play my sonata by Flor Peeters...last year i got 17/20 for the first movement, this year for the second and third movements i got 19/20....Amazing, didn't think i did it justice to be honest.

So, this year i got my Diploma in teaching Cornet & My grade 8.
Next thing is my ATCL (Associate Trinity College London) - Some teaching qualification lol.

God's love, God's love...=)

"The tide is now flowing, I’m touching the wave,
I hear the loud call of the Mighty to Save;
My faith’s growing bolder, delivered I’ll be;
I plunge ’neath the waters, I plunge ’neath the waters,
I plunge ’neath the waters they roll over me. ..

And now hallelujah the rest of my days, shall galdly be spent in promoting his praise..."
William Booth.

- Nerve wreaking
- Scary
- Exciting
- Both corps saying they'd pray for me
- Promises not to forget
- Giving Kelston & Cindy their farewell present =(
- Hugs
- Wii Challenges
- VF adventures & Banter
- Good comments/Fedback from meetings
- Enjoyable
- Funny

And, i think that maybe sums up my weekend.

Today the Vocational Fellowship, 5 of us and Cindy & Kelston went to two corps: Findochty & Buckie. Leaving aberdeen at 8:45am to get there and prepare everything for the meeting, and set up instruments etc.

It was a very nervous morning, well for me anyways. Having never really taken such a big part in a meeting before: It was my first ever sermon. So basically for the majority of the journey in the morning i was praying.

We got there about 10:15...and the officer was starting to worry i think, since the meeting starts at half 10, haha. But we got there, and the meeting began. Chris lead the meeting to start with and led us in worship then into our prayer time.

Chris did his testimony in both meetings, Christine Sang a solo in both meetings, Craig and Fiona did a drama entitled "Love is..." Fiona leading some worship in the evening, And my sermon in the morning, Craig in the evening - He was good =)

There were a lot of positive comments from the morning meeting in Findochty. A man who couldn't stay for tea and coffee told the officer, who then told us, that he thought it was an 'Inspiration'.

Today was for me, a confirmation of my calling to officership, and a really good experience in all.
I what also an emotional and very draining day..doing a sermon takes a lot out of you..and thats what, i'm now away to sleep.

Farewell No.1

I really don't like Good byes and Farewells, and i have 3 this month, and all in two weeks.

First one was tonight. Instead of the usual practices from 6 -9, We all, as a corps gathered together to have a Social for Paul, Kim, Megan and A-J. A night filled with challenges, fun, laughter, quizzes, band pieces chosen by Paul, Kim and Megan, and two songster pieces.

During the second Songster piece "He Leadeth Me"..i turned round to Megan to see if she was okay, and moments after, she put out her arms for a hug and started crying :( So we left the hall and sat in the foyer for a while with A-J. But soon after we got called back in for a time of prayer with the 4 of them, which turned into a group hug with Chloe, Megan and I.

It was a good night, in all.
Just very sad.
I don't want them to leave :(

Cindy & Kelston's Farewell next :(
Then Fiona's :(

Sponsored Walk....

A group of 12 left ASDA's at 10am yesterday morning to walk to Longside and back (About 10 miles) My first fund raiser for going to London in 2010.

It started out to be a really nice day, but a bit along the walk, we got caught in the big downpour and most of us were soaked by the time we arrived back in Peterhead. In the group, the youngest being like 10, he walked, or shall i say ran most of the way to Longside, i was really impressed by him :)

All in all, yesterday's walk was a good 3 hours, even if i'm still sore, haha.
And so far we've raised £393 :)
Praise the Lord!

“God’s Love” Findochty 22nd June

When I was thinking about the theme for the meeting, and thinking what God wanted me to say, I seen this sticker on a car, saying:

"God loves you! And I am trying"

Then I thought, just for interest, I would see if I could find any more on the internet.

"God loves is being enough for all of us!"

"God loves you whether you like it or not."

There is some truths in these saying and we are going to examine those now…

You see an earthly father’s love can let us down at any time, they can forget important days, they can say things that hurt and upset us, a father may not even have anything to do with their Childs life. At any point, anything could go wrong. Gods love for us is the total opposite, he is there at any and every minute of our lives, knows us each one by name, would never do anything to harm us, he watches over us with a mighty and powerful love. And we’re going to take a look at that love a little later on.

My Dad died when I was 4 years old. And I always thought there was something missing, there was that person missing in my life, someone to guide me, someone else to pick me up when I fell, I missed that someone to just give me a hug when I was hurting. As I grew older, I became more aware of Gods presence in my life, and then things were clearer. It became clearer that even though I no longer had my dad around, that God was my heavenly Father, and he would always be around, no matter how badly I hurt him.

Nothing can compare to the Love of that of Christ Jesus.

John 3: 16 say’s this “For God loved the World; that he gave his one and only son. That we may not perish but have everlasting life”

For the ones who have children, could you imagine having to sacrifice your child? Could you do it?

Abraham went through with sacrificing his son, brought him to the alter, but as God saw how Abraham didn’t hesitate to do as god wished, he let Isaac go. God told Abraham that he would bless him; he would let his children flourish.

Is there anything that God wants you to sacrifice to show how much you love God, or to show God’s love to others? And if there is something you know you have to sacrifice to God, are you ready to do so?

Yes, in the end he didn’t have to, but he was willing. God was willing to give his only son for us, so that we might live.

God won’t cut us off, he won’t give up on us, he could never stop loving us. It says in Lamentations 3 v22: that “The faithfulness of the Lord never ends!” It’s everlasting, ongoing, all sufficient, all-powerful, all that we need.

There’s a song by Brenton Brown that simply says:

“You are the everlasting God

The Everlasting God,

You do not faint,

You won’t go weary.

You’re the defender of the weak,

You comfort those in need,

You lift us up on wings like eagles”

As we were shown earlier in the drama: “Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful and endures through every circumstance” So, When things are tough and you feel like giving up, God is there, to lift you up again, he says “Don’t be afraid!” He is with you.

God told us as a child in Hebrews 12:5-6...”My child, don’t make light of he Lord’s discipline, and don’t give up when he corrects you. For the Lord disciplines those he loves and he punishes each one he accepts as his child”

When we were younger, we were maybe told not to leave a certain area when we were out playing, to stay away from certain areas in the house, the cooker for example. The reason we were told these things, the reason for these instructions is to keep us safe and away from any danger.

God’s Love is like that of a Father, an earthly father corrects a child when doing wrong, and always wants the best for their child, and loves them, The same as God, yet he loves us with a more Unconditional Love, nothing we could do could make God love us any less, and nothing can ever separate us from the Love of God.

Unconditional love, but does it really cost us anything? We are told in Lamentations 3::27, that it is best to give yourself to God at an early age, to the yoke of his discipline. So, really, God wants us to give ourselves back to him, to accept him into our lives, and to let him work in us. In Jeremiah 31:3, the lord said to Israel “I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing Love I have drawn you to myself!” God’s love is loyal to all the thousands who love him and keep to his commandments.

But, is it enough to say that we love each other? We need to accompany those words with actions. As the old saying says; “Actions speak louder than words!” Verse 30, says “Let them turn the other check to those who strike them, and accept the insults of their enemies” Our actions will show that we belong to the truth, so when we stand before God we will be confident.

The song by Celine Dion - Because you love me says these words:

For all the love I’ve found in you,

I’ll be forever thankful,

You’re the one, who held me up,

Never let me fall,

You’re the one who saw me through it all.

You were my strength when I was weak,

You were my voice when I couldn’t speak

You were my eyes when I couldn’t see,

You saw the best there was in me,

Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach,

You gave me faith cause you believed,

I’m everything I am,

Because you loved me.

Celine Dion // because you loved me

This song was written about Celine’s dad, and how much of a part he played in her life. She wrote this song after he died, and was just so grateful for his love. These lyrics are true about God too, his love lifts us up, it’s our eyes when we can’t see, he is our strength when we are feeling weak. God saw the very best in us, and he uses us, he uses us for his glory. Everything that we are is all because of God, and his precious gift of Love.

“God Is love, and all you live in love live in God, and God lives in them. And as we live in God, our love grows more perfect.”

We will never be perfect, but we can strive to be like our heavenly father, and learn from him. God’s gift of love is given to us, and we need to receive that love and give back to him what he deserves, to give our lives back to him, and live for him.

Coming back to our car stickers…I did find another one which sums up all that we have been looking at about God’s love. God the father, sent his only son into this world, because he loves us so much, and God wanted the world to see how much he loved us. The sticker says this:

"Jesus did not come to make God's love possible, but to make God's love visible"

I want to leave you with a few questions this morning..

Have you experienced this love from God?

Have you received God’s love in your heart for yourself?

We are going to listen to Christine as she brings us a solo entitled how deep the father's love for us. While Christine is singing some pictures will appear on the screen showing how God made his love visible through Jesus." In this time, I would encourage you to respond to that love. Maybe at our place of prayer - here at the front of the hall. Maybe where you are... But respond and receive that love again today..

God's Love. Sermon for next sunday so far....

“God’s Love” Findochty 22^nd June

Introduction: An earthly father’s love can let us down at any time, they can forget important days, they can say things that hurt and upset us, a father may not even have anything to do with their Childs life. At any point, anything could go wrong. Gods love for us is the total opposite, he is there at any and every minute of our lives, knows us each one by name, would never do anything to harm us, he watches over us with a mighty and powerful love. And we’re going to take a look at that love a little later on.

(maybe something about my own experience?...)

Nothing can compare to the Love of that of Christ Jesus.

John 3: 16 say’s this “For God loved the World; that he gave his one and only son. That we may not perish but have everlasting life”

For the ones who have children, could you imagine having to sacrifice your child? Could you do it?

Abraham went through with sacrificing his son, brought him to the alter, but as God saw how Abraham didn’t hesitate to do as god wished, he let Isaac go. God told Abraham that he would bless him; he would let his children flourish.

Is there anything that God wants you to sacrifice to show how much you love God, or to show God’s love to others? And if there is something you know you have to sacrifice to God, are you ready to do so?

Yes, in the end he didn’t have to, but he was willing. God was willing to give his only son for us, so that we might live.

God won’t cut us off, he won’t give up on us, he could never stop loving us. It says in Lamentations 3 v22: that “The faithfulness of the Lord never ends!” It’s everlasting, ongoing, all sufficient, all-powerful, all that we need.

There’s a song by Chris Tomlin that simply says:

you are the everlasting god

the everlasting god

you do not faint

you won't grow weary.

You're the defender of the weak

you comfort those in need

you lift us up on wings like eagles.

As we were shown earlier in the drama: “Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful and endures through every circumstance” So, When things are tough and you feel like giving up, God is there, to lift you up again, he says “Don’t be afraid!” He is with you.

God told us as a child in Hebrews 12:5-6...”My child, don’t make light of he Lord’s discipline, and don’t give up when he corrects you. For the Lord disciplines those he loves and he punishes each one he accepts as his child”

When we were younger, we were maybe told not to leave a certain area when we were out playing, to stay away from certain areas in the house, the cooker for example. The reason we were told these things, the reason for these instructions is to keep us safe and away from any danger.

God’s Love is like that of a Father, an earthly father punishes a child when doing wrong, and always wants the best for their child, and loves them, The same as God, yet he loves us with a more Unconditional Love, nothing we could do could make God love us any less, and nothing can ever separate us from the Love of God.

Unconditional love, but does it really cost us anything? We are told in Lamentations 3::27, that it is best to give yourself to God at an early age, to the yoke of his discipline. So, really, God wants us to give ourselves back to him, to accept him into our lives, and to let him work in us. In Jeremiah 31:3, the lord said to Israel “I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing Love I have drawn you to myself!” God’s love is loyal to all the thousands who love him and keep to his commandments.

But, is it enough to say that we love each other? We need to accompany those words with actions. As the old saying says; “Actions speak louder than words!” Verse 30, says “Let them turn the other check to those who strike them, and accept the insults of their enemies” Our actions will show that we belong to the truth, so when we stand before God we will be confident.

The song by Celine Dion - Because you love me says these words:

For all the love I’ve found in you,

I’ll be forever thankful,

You’re the one, who held me up,

Never let me fall,

You’re the one who saw me through it all.

You were my strength when I was weak,

You were my voice when I couldn’t speak

You were my eyes when I couldn’t see,

You saw the best there was in me,

Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach,

You gave me faith cause you believed,

I’m everything I am,

Because you loved me.

Celine Dion // because you loved me

This song was written about Celine’s dad, and how much of a part he played in her life. She wrote this song after he died, and was just so grateful for his love. These lyrics are true about God too, his love lifts us up, it’s our eyes when we can’t see, he is our strength when we are feeling weak. God saw the very best in us, and he uses us, he uses us for his glory. Everything that we are is all because of God, and his precious gift of Love.

“God Is love, and all you live in love live in God, and God lives in them. And as we live in God, our love grows more perfect.”

We will never be perfect, but we can strive to be like our heavenly father, and learn from him. God’s gift of love is given to us, and we need to receive that love and give back to him what he deserves, to give our lives back to him, and live for him.

This last few weeks, have been sorta heavy.

With lots going on, with the candidate front, and college, and family, all together was a bit much.
And yet again, i cried in front of another tutor on Thursday. I'm not liking this trend that's happening.

Thursday i stayed behind after theory to go over my pieces with my tutor, Tara. I knew my pieces weren't all perfect, weren't up to scratch, and it all just too much.
With worrying about things like, money for training college, if i was coming back next year to college, I just cried.
Tara was nice about it all though, however she did say that "I should think about what I want to do.." she feels like I've fallen into the music category and that i should take a year out, and i could always come back another year.
That being the point though, i don't really have another year. This next year was meant to be college in Aberdeen, finishing my Diploma, the year after - Work! So i have no clue what i'm doing.

Ideas that were thrown to me by Mark Herbert:
- Shadow Matthew and Debbie
- A month of leading Driven
- Visit a corps in England for a visit (Which is going to be Plymouth)

Was thinking that if maybe i don't get back into college, i got get a job, and maybe do some of the above, minus the england corps, that's not going to be till next year, January/February time.

But, it's the holidays now, and I'm enjoying it :)
And i have my first Candidate Fund raiser on Saturday - Sponsored Walk & BBQ :)

Candidates Interview

Candidates Interview tomorrow.

Sort of nervous and worried about it. But it should be okay, i guess.
I've just been printing out Thoughts that i did for the youth meeting not long ago and my prayers from during the youth re:treat this past weekend, just so they can see what I've been doing.
Should maybe take along my sermon so far, but hmm, not sure.

Interview with the usual Candidates board (Minus Catherine i think) and joining us is Mark Herbert, Territorial Candidates Direcor.

"Through God i can do much much more than i could ever imagine"
Ephesians 3:20.

In Christ Alone by Newsboys

It's near candidates interviews again, and this song just reminds me that it's all in God's hands.

Even though this next interview is scaring me already. Think it may be the fact that Mark Herbert, Territorial Candidates Director is going to be conducting it, that alone sounds scary.

Yesterday was such an amazing day, i don't know where to start.

I came home last night after Driven, and something from that day had stayed with me.
Whether it was the fact that yesterday was on the last things i'll do with Cindy and Kelston being there, whether it was the fact i was shown how supportive my corps actually are, or things that were said and done, whatever it was, maybe all of thee above. Yesterday was just a very very special day to me.

Being Candidates day, i was taking part. Both meetings i was involved in the Prayer time. Morning i was involved in the responsive prayer, along with Kelston and CIndy, and in the evening, I led the prayer time. Something i hadn't done before, and something i was very worried about, but it went really well.

Before the meeting started, Kelston was asking me if my prayer time was all sorted, and how i was feeling about that, then said he was going to interview me, just to let people know whats been going on, and then they were going to pray for me. The interview went well, but it was when we invited people to stand around me, and pray for me, then the whole congregation were on their feet, was very emotional. As kelston finished praying i looked around with tears falling down my face to see everyone, which ended up with more tears. I love my corps so much <3

I remember standing on the platform when Kelston, when he said this: "Look after her, I may be in Plymouth but I'll be watching from a distance" - That was the sweetest thing i had heard in a long time.

And, my song that i picked for the songsters was "I'll Not Turn Back!" and it was actually sang twice that day - morning and back. Very moving song. In the morning it was used as part of the response. We were given little strips of blue ribbon and we, if we wanted, could tie them to a fishing net, to show that we'd left that something behind that was getting in our way of giving up and not turning back.

All in all, a really good day.
But if that was just everyone supporting me at the start of this journey, i don't want to see what it's going to be like when i actually leave, haha!

Lots of hugs, support and smiles yesterday =]

I'll Not Turn back, What ever it may cost, I'm called to live, to love and save the lost!
♥